Dear DinoDear Dino,I was thinking my life away again. I was hit by a flashback of Joey's death. I ralized that I never really dealt with it. I didn't openly mourn and I didn't accept it. I've been trying to forget it…but I can't deny Joey or what happened that day.Sometimes, I still blame myself. I feel like we could've maybe saved him. I keep replaying the scence in my mind. Lately, it's been literally haunting me. Dino, I'm going to write the version of my visions. Let me know if it's what really happened, of if it's just my guilt. I need to know what really happened.I think it was us. We were the reason he was walking out. A fight, I think. I
I Wanna Die TonightShe said, \"I wanna die tonight. This night is perfect for it. The stars cry for me already. They don\'t know that I\'m still here. So there is no point in staying. The sky is screaming for it. I wanna die tonight. The time is right for it.\"He said, \"You don\'t wanna die tonight. Look out at the moon. She shines a different light. She knows your true power. She shines for you still. You live for it. You don\'t wanna die tonight. The night is when you truly live.\"She said, \"I am death tonight. The night is when the pain comes out. The night is when it\'s dark. I come alive, but realize who I really am. I am that darkness out there. Not
Dancing in the RainHere is a story of just how amazing this woman can be. The miracle Amber, as I called it. It was not long after Demi's funeral. And before Joey's death. Yeah I should put these in order, only I thought the happy story should follow the sad one, unless you want the last thing you read to be sad. There was a hot, humid rain. Let's face it, rain in the city is not so great. But Amber, she's always loved the rain. Says it heals and cleanses. It's always cleansed her pain in ways a person can only imagine. I'm not giving credit to the rain for this afternoon, however. It was Amber that healed us. The band was pretty down. We had finis
Screaming EyesAt first, looking at herYou'd never knowAll the pain she'll never showThe way she carries herselfThe way she walks, the way she actsYou'd never knowThe joy her life lacksHidden in amber pools of lightThere's a sadness that comes out at nightAnd she's laughing on the outside looking inPutting on a mask to hide her sinsAs she runs worn fingers through her hairShe screams out loudFor someone to take away the despairThe way she staresYou'd never knowHow she has no one who caresBut she won't let you seeJust how the world brought her to her kneesLook deeper than those amber pools of lightThere's a sadness tha
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